Grade 8 piano

This was actually on Saturday but I haven't had the time to write about it (>_<)

Anyways...

I had my piano lesson as usual on Saturday

And after playing my third piece (which sucks because my fingers can only manage to stretch an octave and that pieces has many bits where I have to stretch further than an octave (>_<)) my piano teacher said that I should try for my exam end of march

.......

Actually freaked out because she seems to want me to take my exams earlier and earlier each year (>_<)

Like last year I took my grade 6 in April and then took my grade 7 three months after that

And now I'm taking my grade 8 exam with less than a years practice and I am actually freaking out because I don't think I'm going to be able to get my pieces perfect enough for my exam (especially the third one)

And it doesn't help that I absolutely hate mg first piece - not because I don't like the sound of it (if that was the case then I wouldn't of chosen it) but because my fingers hate the piece and despite knowing which key they should be pressing they just don't like playing that piece (>_<)

I'm really worried about wasting mother's money if I do fail...

And I don't think I'd be able to stand the disappointment of failing...

It'll be my last piano exam and I've always managed to pass (despite my nerves XD) and I won't be able to stand it if I can't pass my last exam

Even if this is meant to be the hardest exam...

I still want to be able to perfect my pieces, knowing that I have a chance of passing, and actually feeling confident in them

I know I could always tell my piano teacher that I don't think I'm ready, but, like she said, if I don't pass this march I could always re-take it in the summer, but if I decide to wait until summer to take my exam then I won't get a chance to re-take it if j fail (since I'm going to uni and everything)

*sighs*

I guess I just have to try my best

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