Last exam for January!

Had my last exam (chemistry) today
And yesterday my mind was totally freaking out about how much I don't know but my body could not respond to it and continued to be last...OTL
In the end, I managed to teach myself some chemistry thankfully...

And the exam.....
Was too fricken difficult!!!
Most people found it difficult and I was ong of them
I was already panicking on the first question where it took me a while to understand what it was trying to ask me
And then there were some questions I remembered from revising with my revision cards
And then there were others which I remember skim-reading from my revision book and thinking "there's no way that's going to come up" OTL
At those questions, I really did feel like crying...(　>д<)

But the exam is over and there's no point worrying over something that is done where I can't do anything to change it (unless I can hunt down the person marking my paper and bribe them to give me a good mark XD)

And it's my last exam!
Until may/June of course...
But I can relax for now...
Actually...I can't since chemistry coursework is starting next week and I know I'll be putting off all of it until last minute where I'll be rushing to do it and getting it in on time (since they said they won't mark it if it's handed in late...)

Why must this year be so hard...?

At least I've got l'arc~en~ciel's concert to look forward to!!!
Can't wait~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

恭禧發財♡

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

Although it is currently nearly midnight and most countries should already be the 24th
But oh well! Better late than never as they always say XD

So this year is the year of the dragon huh
And 2012 is also supposedly the "end of the world"
So I guess it's quite fitting to have such a powerful legendary creature be 2012 XD

Well I've got my fortune for this year and it sounds pretty reasonable (´･ω･`)
Apparently there'll be new change for me this year (most likely to be me moving out and going to uni ♡)
I will also be finding the first half of the year pretty hard (most likely to do with coursework and exams (´._.`)) but the second half should be better and I'll probably be able to relax (yay!)
I'm going to spending a lot this year (yet again most likely to be because of Uni and my independence where I cam buy whatever I want ♡)
And I need to be careful of injuries because apparently I'm going to have a lot of them this year...

So that's my Chinese fortune done!
Well what I remember anyways...XD

.*･ﾟ☆恭☆禧☆發☆財☆ﾟ･*.

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Also picture is my "hung pao" from mother
Which is probably the only one I'll be receiving this year XD

First A2 exam

Had my psychology exam today
The subject that I've revised for the most
Seriously, the revision I did for my GCSE's and AS level COMBINED weren't as much as the revision I did for this psychology exam....
And still
The three topics that I hate the most (group display, functions of sleep and breakdown of relationships) were the three questions that came up and I had to write essays on....(>_<)
Although Breakdown of relationships wasn't that bad but I didn't know any studies for it...
And I spent like half an hour trying to figure out what the hell I was meant to write for functions of sleep (Oswald and Horne or Webb and Meddis?!?) in the end I wrote about both XD

It didn't help that outside in the playground, there was some random girl barking and then screaming could be heard and then more barking
So distracting but hilarious at the same time XDDD
In the end my psychology teacher had to go downstairs and tell them to shut up XDD
I guess that was the only highlight of the exam

And in the exam (I forgot to mention) it kept saying outline research on..." and I'm like 'reasearch?!? So just the research and no theories?!? WTH?!?' And I totally didn't get it _A_
Apparentally it means theories but they thought they'd just write research just to confuse me...@_@

Well if I fail then I won't be surprised
And if I got a good grade then I'd be happy and greatful
So no loss XD

Allergy is getting worse...

Brother came up to my room today and offered me some strawberries
Totally forgetting that I even had an allergy to all fruits (EXCEPT BLUEBERRIES ♥) I picked one and ate it
As soon as I took my first bite, I remembered about my allergy and thought that if I eat it quick enough, it'll be alright
Usually my allergy is just itchiness wherever the fruit touches (so the lips, tongue and throat)
But this time, for sims reason, my chest started to hurt like the allergy has gone down all the way to my chest and it felt like someone was putting pressure on my chest and pushing down on it
It didn't hurt, it just felt really uncomfortable...(´･_･｀)
And that's never really happened before...
Thankfully I still had one allergy tablet left (now I don't have any left...)
And the tablet took a while before it started working and even now I still don't feel 100% right...(>_<)
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The pictures are of the sky yesterday
Although you can't see it very clearly, the sky had a mixture of blue and red/pink in it and it looked so pretty ♡
The sky made everything look a bit reddish - which I noticed the moment I stepped out of the house
Some people thought it was the apocalypse (lolz XD)
Whereas I just thought that it was a really nice change to the usually dull grey colour in the mornings
Apparently the sky was like that because mercury, Venus, Jupiter and Saturn could be seen in the sky all together
Which sounded amazing but I never got to see it since it was very cloudy yesterday night...

Grade 8 piano

This was actually on Saturday but I haven't had the time to write about it (>_<)

Anyways...

I had my piano lesson as usual on Saturday

And after playing my third piece (which sucks because my fingers can only manage to stretch an octave and that pieces has many bits where I have to stretch further than an octave (>_<)) my piano teacher said that I should try for my exam end of march

.......

Actually freaked out because she seems to want me to take my exams earlier and earlier each year (>_<)

Like last year I took my grade 6 in April and then took my grade 7 three months after that

And now I'm taking my grade 8 exam with less than a years practice and I am actually freaking out because I don't think I'm going to be able to get my pieces perfect enough for my exam (especially the third one)

And it doesn't help that I absolutely hate mg first piece - not because I don't like the sound of it (if that was the case then I wouldn't of chosen it) but because my fingers hate the piece and despite knowing which key they should be pressing they just don't like playing that piece (>_<)

I'm really worried about wasting mother's money if I do fail...

And I don't think I'd be able to stand the disappointment of failing...

It'll be my last piano exam and I've always managed to pass (despite my nerves XD) and I won't be able to stand it if I can't pass my last exam

Even if this is meant to be the hardest exam...

I still want to be able to perfect my pieces, knowing that I have a chance of passing, and actually feeling confident in them

I know I could always tell my piano teacher that I don't think I'm ready, but, like she said, if I don't pass this march I could always re-take it in the summer, but if I decide to wait until summer to take my exam then I won't get a chance to re-take it if j fail (since I'm going to uni and everything)

*sighs*

I guess I just have to try my best

(.› ₃ ‹.)♡

The setting sun...

Today there was another Uni talk

(well it's the first uni talk of this year XD)

And it was about offers from uni's and choosing the uni that you really want

That talk was kinda like a wake-up call for me, it just opened my eyes fo how huge this all is and the responsibility that I have now to choose the uni that's right for me

It just....scares me

I've always known that I'll be going to uni, there was no questioning it

But I've always worried about what course I wanted to do

Now that i've finally got a solid idea of what I want to do, I now have to decide on which uni I want to go to to do my course

It seemed easy at first, since I planned on going to Edinburgh, but now that the course I want to do is not available in Edinburgh, I'm knpw deciding on two uni's in London

But I can't seem to choose which one I'd prefer....(>_<)

Do I go for middlesex or west London?

All this thinking is giving me a headache 

But I know it's my responsibility fo choose the right one and once I choose I can't go back

I guess that's the thing that worries me the most

Not being able to go back

There's no delete button, no control Z

There's only one way forward which I'm hesitant about taking

*sighs*

This has become a pretty depressing post ne?  ( ๑ •́  _ •̀ ๑ ) 

As I was thinking of these things, I looked out of the window and saw the sky 

It was such a pretty blend of the warmth orange turning night blue

It looked so pretty

And somehow...it kinda helped relax me (*´˘`*)♡
Is that weird? XD

I just noticed....

I only just noticed that the background of this blog has YUI, Shinji, Mao, Aki.....
BUT WHERE'S YUUYA?!?! =O

How could I forget Yuuya?!?!
Although I think I should change the background since it does look quite terrible...XD

I can't play Byakuya (True Light) anymore....!!! (>_<)

For 7 years....
7 years....
I've been able to play DN Angel's 'Byakuya' (aka True Light)
And everytime I will forget about it and about a year later I will still be able to remember the piece and play it
However....
I tried today.....
And I couldn't remember it!!!
I couldn't even remember the beginning of the piece...!!! OTL
Actually wanted to cry......

This has never happened before!
I've always remembered how to play it even if I forget bits of it to begin with, I always end up remembering it....
Although I still haven't exactly completely been able to play the full piece (since I've always been lazy and my small hands can't reach those octaves) but I've always been able to play at least 3/4 of the piece without any problems!
I have always remember how to play it off by heart without needing the music sheet
but.....
I had to look at the music sheet this time
Even for the beginning of the piece....!!! *cries*

I think I might just crawl into a hole and cry.........
Or I just have to relearn the piece
But it just depresses me....

I guess I'm making too much fuss out of this, but I've known the piece for 7 years!
And it that 7 years, I've never forgotten how to play it...(>_<)
I was totally hoping I'd be able to put myself to finish the whole piece once I've taken my grade 8 exam, and just before I go off to Uni as well....*sighs*

Will need to work hard to relearn the piece! (>_<)

70MPH!!!

Today was back to school and god...I don't remember being so tired before....(>_<)
But somehow I made it through the day...XD

Today I had my first driving lesson of 2012
It had been a while since I've had a driving lesson, I was quite worried if I remembered how to drive XDD
But thankfully everything went pretty well and then...I hit 40mph!
And I was pretty pleased that I could go that fast....
until...
We got to a round-a-bout and my driving instructor told me to go up to the dual carriageway
At first I looked at her like she was mad, but I did as I was told and was pretty much freaking out inside me XD

When we got onto the dual carriageway, my driving instructor told me "I don't want to freak you out, but you can go up to 70mph here"
Which I took it as meaning that I was going to have to go up to 70mph....O.O
Straight after hitting 40mph I was having to go 70mph!
Was freaking out definitely but didn't show it and my driving instructor even said that she's pleased that I didn't have "white knuckles" which I had no idea what she meant but she said that it means I wasn't gripping the steering wheel like I was holding onto dear life XD
Which I wasn't because I was trying to be relax and calm about it despite freaking out inside XD

On the way back (still on the dual carriageway) it started to rain. A lot.
And the wind picked up and was blowing on the side of the car
Seriously thought I was going to die.
And then I noticed on the dashboard that I've gone way past 70mph and had to slow down
Which did help a lot as I wasn't fighting against the wind as much (thank god)

And then exited the dual carriageway and then I don't know why but I kept going over the speed limit after that...._A_
And my driving seem to have worsen as well OTL

But it was definitely good fun (and I was pretty much shaking by the end of it XD)

First day of 2012 ♡

Woke up after 12pm since no one decided to wake me up XD
So I ended up having a really nice lie in (*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡

And then the rest of the day I spent playing cards (Chinese "big 2") with the family

And mahjong, which was definitely the highlight of the day! XD

The mahjong we play is only 3 players so it started off with me, brother and mother
And...my mother lost all her money within the first round (east round) XDDD
I was just crying with laughter because that has never happened before
I mean it might've been because brother won with a game by just doing nothing because his hand was perfect XDDD
After the three rounds have finished father decided to take over mother since she needed to start making dinner
And father ended up losing all his money twice within the next three rounds we played (っω-)..｡o
And me and brother had won the most (◦'ωˉ◦)~♡

For dinner we ended up with jaoanese food - sushi, tempura and zura sobs with the dipping sauce, sobs tsuyu ♡
Un. It was delicious ♡

After that we watched transformers and then had a go at the xbox (๑• v •๑)♡”

In the end it was a fun-packed day where I did no revision.... (๑•́ ₃ •̀๑)